Start Opening Up to Others

Finding it hard to open to others, to me is a weakness but represents a sense of coolness and curiosity. But recently, I find it a real disadvantage, giving much chance for misunderstanding from others. Hard in opening to others also made me oversensitive and over-think about a lot of situations. Knowing this, but still not able to help continuing in this path. Having been told about this problem and reassured that situation is not as complicated as I tend to make of it, does not help nor improve the way I think.

To me, Courage. Need to dig up the courage and step up to the challenge. I've finally able to do that today and find that it really isn't how I think at all. I feel more reassured and lighter after opening up today.

I usually think twice about calling, or contacting people I would like to get to know better or befriend worrying that it will inconvenient them. Hence, only waiting for a reason or purpose to then only call. I realize now, because of this I am missing a lot.
Today, I finally brought up the courage to do just this. Telling a friend (one worth to be better friend with) how I really feel and think. I am very appreciative to her; for her positive comments and reassurance. Thanks!

When usually, longer time was needed for me to be really comfortable to openly share my thoughts and feelings, I believe I should start learning from her and not keep everything to myself only.

I realize more now than ever how insincere it is to just call my friends, especially best friends only when I needed something even if they already know and understand how my character is. I learn today, more than ever how my actions that meant well may not be obvious to others.

Starting Today, Right Now. I Vow~~

• I will say 'I Love You' to my family more often.
• I shall not keep everything to myself and over-think situations. Instead, find out and open up to others.
• I shall not be overly concern of what others think of me as this is very tiring and stressful. 
• I will call my family and friends more often, even when there aren't anything important I wish to tell them.
• I shall not think of my friends and those who care about me as Helplines but as the Sun*.

I promise I shall do this well and improve myself for the better. I would like to thank my lecturer for giving me this insight and all my friend who has been supporting me all this while. 

I would like to thank my family and especially cousin who supported and reassured me when I needed it most (not something he present usually). 

Last but not least, I thank 2 person today for helping me understand all these with positive mind. Thanks to you, I can start making this move towards a better Self.

*The Sun:-
Always Reliable; Rising every morning without fail.
Shining Brightly; Offering light when you need it most.
Never Gone; Even when it's not visible.
Beautiful at the Rise and Set.
Important for human survival.

Good friends are those that stays with us through our ups and downs. ^_^